Tuesday, October 17, 2006

WHY AM I NOT RICH!

WHY DO I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF BEING HELD BACK FROM SOMETHING I WANT TO DO FINANCIALLY?

the heart is there the spirit is there. but the money is NO WHERE.

got money is not everything.

no money is nothing.

i hate myself for liking such weird stuff. why cant i just be normal and go for what others like too. which are far less expensive? scuba diving photography. what fucking expensive hobby they are. certainly not something for a poor girl like me. who is having trouble selling a stupid pencilcase!

why am i so stubborn? cant i just forget the whole idea of being a scuba diver and owning a DSLR? wouldnt that cure everything and i wouldnt be blogging here?

why cant i be like HIM. carefree life. money falls from the sky. he has no interest no hobby no skill no nothing. NO FUCKING LIFE. thats why i dont want to be like him. no matter how much i enjoy his worryfree life

i dont intend to work in GV anymore. the pay is too low. four faggot dollars is not going to get me anywhere.

question asked by someone: why are you so hardworking?

why am i so hardworking? i am damn lazy. and as you already know stubborn. i want something and i want it NOW. i will do anything to get it. as soon as possible. i hate waiting.

why am i so hardworking? because i am unhappy. i am unsatisfied. there are many things i want to do before i die. and that could be anytime. it could be tomorrow. or even now. life is so unpredictable.

soon perhaps. i will just snap out of this. and the truth remains that. i am poor and stubborn.

and i would do anything to get that Nikon D80.

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