Friday, October 20, 2006

today was filled with mixed emotions.

bored during the talk angry when we got scolded for not listening. mrchan got brittany to wake xinyi up. then brittany pointed and drew huge circles indicating that the whole lot of students there also sleeping. shit.

are you a nature lover?

chinese was boring. but i kept myself entertained by drawing motorcycles and colouring my shoelace. i got a chicken motorbike a bat mobilebike an ugly-harley. and many half done sketches.

we manage to finish a vase of hearts and stars for mrs kuan. IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS. manymany thanks to all like mel and bobo and lala and siying and adeline and brittany(who got scolded with me) went to coro to get materials and somewhere nearby to kop free ZO postcards

the 4plus hours seemed to pass really quickly. just more and more hearts and stars.

graduation magazine came today. i didnt order one duh. the monkeys in the magazine had different hairstyles. the xena was damn... and rachel kept laughing at the -xinyin in the rain-.

the softball page was beeeeaaaaauuuuuutttttiiiiiiffffuuuulllll. i wanted to rip it out

[just recieved a text from chu: eh xena YOU ARE DAMN NASTY MAN. ]

i was kinda sad in the evening. everyone had their parents coming for the ceremony. mine parents dont even know this exist. happily at a corner of the world.

so i asked mrskuan to be my temporary mum. and she agreed! hahaha and she said i could be her goddaughter and wah i so big already. :)

spent time waiting laming around. ziwei has videos hope she will upload them soon. has me pointing a certain finger though.

monkey: -helps rachel pin hair. accidentally pokes her-
rachel: OUCH YOU THINK WHAT ACUPUNCTURE AH?!
monkey: yar i trying to poke the smart nerve to make you smarter.

GRADUATION CEREMONY WAS DAMN BORING!!! i ended up smsing some people like pig and chunhui. then i smsed godma and mr teo.

i texted godma that i rachel and i are bored. then she replied (she was on stage at that time!!) me too but behave. over and out.

SO CUTE!

then i messaged mr teo. saying that rachel is bored. and he replied. you think i am not? lucky i had a call. kek kek. (whatever kek kek means... must be some RJ slang)

then i ask him to be temp dad. and he said. huh then i m mr tan and mrskuan is mrs tan? okay, even tho it means i was dad at 5.........

monkey: you think you very young meh. you took a while year to blow all the candles from your cake

i had great fun sitting for hours hurhur.

GRADUATION CEREMONY = LAST TIME LISTENING TO SPEECHES

one mother was really cute. during the singing of the school song, she opened her book to the lyrics page and sang along with us.

we had boliao gifts from the school.....

after the ceremony stayed around to chat with mrteo and miss tan(she handwrote out nicenice cards for us! and the card is damn cute! a furry pink monkey! and pig for some others)

eugenia left her camera behind so since i am keeping it for her, i assumed that i could borrow a bit of space. so ding and i took picture with ms chang. and i took a picture with a very sweaty mr chia.

201006. graduation. i still remember coming to school in this strange sleeveless uniform thats really white. checking for my class at the front of the auditorium. in front of the board, i am sure many of the strange faces (that i cant rmmbr) around me, are now my friends. how the school seemed so big and easy to get lost in. as the days pass, i slowly explore every nook and cranny. now the school is just right, and warm and cosy.

i feel that friends made in your secondary school life are the ones who will stay with you for the longest time. this period of time is where we mature and grow up to supposedly become fine young ladies. this is also when we fall the lowest and our friends are the one by our sides. we celebrate together we play together we cry together. we fall out and we patch back. we all at one time or another piss our friends off. at other times, we do something dumb and laugh till their tummy hurts. i had my best times, as well as my worst, in class. in that room with four walls and a whiteboard.

reality hit me only when ding confessed her sudden realisation while singing the graduation song. i was goofing off then.

things would be so different in hci.

i started thinking of all my teachers. oh man i will miss them like hell. though i am guilty of cursing a few before. the list will run on and on if i try to list what i will miss about nanyang(maybe next post) i am suddenly afraid to leave nanyang. as though i am some newly hatched chick expected to leave the nest to learn to fly. but i know, only if i flap those still wet from inexperience wings of mine, will i soar.

the busride back was a one full of reflection. and plans.

i plan to make more stars and buy more glass bottles/containers from ikea. the big one for mrK and smaller ones for misstan misslee missrashidah. actually i think i want to give manymany other teachers too. sigh. lets leave the details for another day.

then i will write nice little cards. with a sweet message. i want really thank my teachers. for i am soooo grateful. i do not know what i would be like without them. every little thing they do/say influence me in some way big or small (just like butterfly effect). in fact, they are almost like my parents, cause they make me, my character.

oh goodness. this is such a long post. i am glad no one reads my blog but 2. :)

you got tickled at 22:06

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

i got my new specs today! it is red. why red? i dunno! cause i once wore mag's and cam's glasses that were reddish i think it suits so i got red :)

applied for cafe cartel today. with adeline and hh. $5 an hour. i dunno if that was the right decision. let god decide for me. if i get accepted, i will just quite GV.

minimum working hours 4. and friday-sunday must come down at least 2 days. the dumb thing is, the part time staff must buy their own set of uniform and an apron. and a name tag as well. that totals up to $43. so you are actually working 9 hours for free...... cant they be like GV and loan out the uniforms. so dumb. pants is just jeans i guess. and they serve lemon water yumyum omg! i am so tempted to drink my lemon water now!!!

and i suddenly find myself putting down my glass of water the tamaki way.....

chinese first thing in the morning and at the end of the day. ah boring. i slept during chinese. gotta catch up on sleep mah everyday sleeping at 12midnight. we had graduation ceremony rehearsal in the middle. it would be boring if not for the crazy people around me. first it was the sitting in a single file from front to back. then we got up and walked around and rehearsing... and we got to sit in a line from left to right.

then the fun beings.

brittany and camilia wear fighting/arguing/bitching/playing... i dunno what they doing lah but the idea is... they were shooting things back and forth. i think it all started with camilia being the target practise. and brittany was taking her training super seriously. hannie joined us during the rehearsal. haha PAT! and everytime i PAT her i get a SMACK. :(

we sang quando. then brittany sang to camilia while trying to unzip camilia's pocket. to get her handphone or something. or for the sake of doing something. then brittany ask me to hold cam's hand.

so i sang.

ooh yeah i.. know that something. blahblahblahblah i wanna hold your haaannnnndddddd

but she didnt want to give me her hand! how can she not be touched by my wonderful singing?!

then brittany started to grab camilia'a hand and touch here there. then the song became

ooh yeah i.. know that something. brittany doesnt like men. when i say that something. brittany wanna hold cam's haaannndddd. cause she is les bi annnnnnn. she wanna hold cam's hand.

brittany tore her strepsils thing and got aluminium confetti. and threatened to throw it at cam's hair.

everybody wants to know her naaaaammmeeee i throw a house party and she caaaammmmeeee. everyone ask me, who the hell is she. that weirdo with confetti in her hair.

mrs kuan will be coming for graduation ceremoney!! as our form teacherrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!! sigh but still got mrs chan :( not that i dont like her. but i am just not close to her. i rather it be mrs kuan as form and ms tan as co form!

i didnt know camera has races too. po linn and mr kuo seemed to be bias against nikon.

mum and dad leaving for japan tomorrow morning, even before i wake up. but i think i will was wake up and say yi lu shun feng to them. i have this feeling that i will miss them? yup i think i really will.

but from tomorrow till they come back. my house is open to anyone! hahaahaha sleepovers also can but must depend on my mood. for neighbours confirm can one you can shift your bed here or take my bottom mattress for a week! you just have to put up with the mess.

4 hours of chinese tomorrow. peninsular plaza tomorrow to check out cameras yupyupyup

i really really want the camera. i really really hope mummy strike 4-D today. i really really want the camera.

almighty one up there. do you here my pleas?

you got tickled at 17:20

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

WHY AM I NOT RICH!

WHY DO I ALWAYS FIND MYSELF BEING HELD BACK FROM SOMETHING I WANT TO DO FINANCIALLY?

the heart is there the spirit is there. but the money is NO WHERE.

got money is not everything.

no money is nothing.

i hate myself for liking such weird stuff. why cant i just be normal and go for what others like too. which are far less expensive? scuba diving photography. what fucking expensive hobby they are. certainly not something for a poor girl like me. who is having trouble selling a stupid pencilcase!

why am i so stubborn? cant i just forget the whole idea of being a scuba diver and owning a DSLR? wouldnt that cure everything and i wouldnt be blogging here?

why cant i be like HIM. carefree life. money falls from the sky. he has no interest no hobby no skill no nothing. NO FUCKING LIFE. thats why i dont want to be like him. no matter how much i enjoy his worryfree life

i dont intend to work in GV anymore. the pay is too low. four faggot dollars is not going to get me anywhere.

question asked by someone: why are you so hardworking?

why am i so hardworking? i am damn lazy. and as you already know stubborn. i want something and i want it NOW. i will do anything to get it. as soon as possible. i hate waiting.

why am i so hardworking? because i am unhappy. i am unsatisfied. there are many things i want to do before i die. and that could be anytime. it could be tomorrow. or even now. life is so unpredictable.

soon perhaps. i will just snap out of this. and the truth remains that. i am poor and stubborn.

and i would do anything to get that Nikon D80.

you got tickled at 23:37 the haze is killing me.

i feel like i am in a dream or in some fairy tale.... but i know i am on earth.

i feel like i am in Genting Highlands. especially when i look at The Gardens (where the stud stays).

because of the haze, we couldnt do much today.

2 hours of sitting on the dirty carpeted floor of the conference room, playing pictionary (for a while cause we got bored) with real pictionary cards(thanks HH!). i am guilty of not listening to the teacher. i dont remember a single thing she said. only something about square root sign must have a hook and not whateverrr. then i commented to brittany why everything must have hook one. square root sign must have hook, english essay must have hook.

maybe they really trying to teach us to fish for a lifetime.

and both of my maths marks were the same. boring sia. both papers also minus one mark cause i didnt write in the proper significant figures. HOW DUMB :(

geog paper! the entire class was so damn quiet that you could hear a mute man speak. i was grabbing the metal bars of the table till my hands turned whitish. my heart started racing and running a marathon.

phew. not bad afterall. there was a half mark calculation. and i tried bargaining for two points, of which i only got half a mark. so in total, i gained ONE WHOLE mark. not like that would change my grade. miss rashidah asked me why was i fighting so hard. i told her that i had to use geog to pull up my other subjects. look at chem+LA+cheena

miss rashidah told me after the checking of papers. CONGRATULATIONS! not bad ah! i wasnt expecting you to do so well. -_- T_T ;_; am i that lousy?

when we go over to HCI, we will start a club. an illegal club. we go around bullying people. and collect protection money from the students. we will learn the chao ah lian way of swearing. hannie is the pet. cause *patpat* hannie evolve to *pat* hannie to pet hannie. and we will use the protection money to buy food for pet hannie. camilia is our practise target for all the bullying. magdalene is the loan shark. and we have a treasurer but i cannot remember who. oh brittany is the one who will use words to insult and hurt people and ziwei uses her high pitch voice to get on people's nerve so they will pay up

one day, some guy will cut brittany's queue and she would start raping him with words. then she calls monkey who appears with pet hannie seated on her shoulders (like honey and mori!) and pet hannie will shout FOOD! and chomp the guy's head off

the haze clears and monkey wakes up from her daydreams

i still cant find a camera. found i site though, like a forum and might be the one that mr kuo told me polinn bought her cam. but still, the prices are still a little out of reach. PLEASE LET MUMMY STRIKE 4-D TOMORROW SO SHE WOULD SPONSOR MY CAMERA PLEASE!

i asked mr kuo if he knows where i can get second hand cam. he ask me why i now suddenly want to learn. i should have joined AV Club in sec1 (WTF?!). i replied. I JOIN AV CLUB?! THEN I WOULD BE UNDER YOU RIGHT? THEN DONT WANT.....

mr kuo: -_- T_T ;_; am i that lousy?

haha nah he didnt say that. he told me that i could try my luck at penisular plaza. then pause. then. BUT YOU SURE GET CONNED ONE.

hellllllllooo what do i look like to you? a little girl? XIAOMEIMEI?

hey but i do look like that ^-^V

aiya someday sometime before i go taiwan...

I REALLY WANT TO PICK UP PHOTOGRAPHY!!!!!!!

[you have two brains. one is lost and the other is looking for it.]

you got tickled at 19:28

Monday, October 16, 2006

SLR Camera
anyone who knows a friend who is thinking of selling his camera? cause i really want to buy one to get a better idea of photography. preferably those that can like change lens and digital. the price i am willing to pay depends on the camera itself.

thank you!

you got tickled at 22:19 i really wonder what made me start this whole blogging thing again, again.

and i am betting my last dollar that this wouldn't last.

exams are over! everyone rejoice. but why do i feel so lost? there's a lot to be done. but what? i feel like i am living day by day, with no plans for tomorrow, or even this evening. so no life.

feels like.... i live for exams.

but we had fun today! classmates are this crazy bunch of bananas. or P-ananas as rachel misspelled. we had a crazy time playing games from pictionary to uno to cheat to taitee to charade to more pictionary. edlyn's ipod was providing us song titles to draw and act out.

my hardest word was experience. brittanykhoo is seriously insulting my intelligence. i threw my shoe at her. SHOE YOU BRITTANYKHOOOO

and BK is a super aggressive actor/ress or charader/ress. since when do you flap your arm wildly with your eyes the size of sotongballs.

i am a terrible liar. i cant play cheat :(

there's training tomorrow. COACH! the love i have for the game is dying out. he is the only one who can ignite my passion for softball again. he is the reason why i am who i am today. parents arent the only one who mould a person character. in fact for me, my character was shaped by the warm hands of my grandmother. then when i entered ny, my coach knock sense into my with his mizuno bat. and he gave me a fishing rod, so i could fish my whole life and not go hungry.

ah i hate that hungry word. reminds me of my lame essay. "Nature provides a free lunch, only if we know how to control our appetite." my lame essay got me a 22/30. highest in my whole life. it was so corny the teacher heated my paper and ate popcorn while marking my script

geog and maths coming back tomorrow. sighhhh i hope i do well :)

[just when i thought i was over you]

you got tickled at 21:34